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This blog is specially for the girls out there who thought they have no one to talk to and thought that no one understand their feelings. Through this website you’ll realize that you’re not the only one who suffered certain issues. Those who look happy and problem less doesn’t mean that they have a perfect life. Here we can share our problems together and solve it like a fighter. Handkerchief for the girls. Where are the hopes? Where are the dreams? Where are the Cinderella story scenes? Its all here in Pinkerchief.
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Monday, September 22, 2008

Quotes of Life


Bertrand Russell:
Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].
Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.
Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.
This has been my life; I found it worth living.
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Nadine Stair (attributed, probably erroneously):
If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time.
I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip.
I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would
climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream
and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have
fewer imaginary ones.
You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour
after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it
over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing
else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years
ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes
anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a
parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I
have.
If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in
the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more
dance; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.
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Friday, September 19, 2008

Another Fucked Up Day

Damn it!! For the past few week since the assestment started I've been problem with my sleep! I don entirely blame it on my studies, I know its a must.. I have some other problems that i'm facing in my personal life too.

I've been irritated by few stuffs recently and its just getting on my nerve. I've stop talking in my class as I feel like I'm gonna burst anytime soon!! I never want to burst my temper to anyone especially it involves the classmates.

Back at home, I feel restless each time I reached my home AND I DON'T K'NOW WHY!! I'll be damn sleepy at 8 or 9pm then i'll wake up before 11pm itself. I can't sleep till the next morning and I class starts at 9.30! What kind of human sleeps only for 2 hours per day! If I'm supposed to die early, don't torture me like this lar!

You should really try to fit in my shoes to really know how it feels! I've been through this too long, I'll damned if I see anything that doesn't suits my eyes!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Weird Classmates

Hey today again.. i'm almost one hour late for class. What can i say, Business Studies.. Not my favourite. I thought i was the only one late all the time due to overslept, but my good friend is much more late than me this whole week. Maybe its just my lazy virus spreading to my friends lar..Haha
During Business Studies class, two classmates were playing cards in the class. They were hiding the cards under the table and our Panda is so blind to see that! (Brilliant move guys..HAHAHA)
One of the guy who play cards is so sweet, he bought an expansive gift from The Body Shop for his ex-girlfren. Come on, ex-girlfren's bday... how many people would remember that?? i can't even remember my friends bday!! I'm not trying to say its a bad thing.. i just feel that its very kind and gentleman of him for doing that but of course... he never admit the thing belongs to him, he ask his fren to cover for him by speaking in mandarin (he totally forgot that i understand the language...HeHe)
I never like life in college, somehow today my eyes opened by strange things that happened in class today. Especially when Mr Law Lecturer came in with specs.. for the first time! Of course included the gift for ex gal, cards, and didn't i mention?? i received a gift from my good fren today and two weeks back i received a cute present from one of my group member! GIRL Friends.
Hey its not that i love college because i'm receiving gifts.. just that i find it interesting today..

** I don't mention names here as i don't know whether they want me to mention their names or is it good to mention people's name in a blog?! Even if they want me to mention.. better to keep it as low profile.. to avoid incovenience later date! Hehe

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

To Explain Is Not Everything

People tend to show their weakness when they are guilty. For what i believe, don ever involve anyone into your problem, u can share ur problem of course but not to everyone right? We call that gossiping or in short word i call it BITCH.

My bf always say that i'm very defensive when i feel guilty. I believe i'm not the only one. Why are u being defensive? Just simple answer right? Its because u don wan anyone to suspect you, or straight forwardly i say, cover ur ass.

I've been observing people's character my whole life, ookay i mean half my life, just to see what are the actions will be taken by different people for same issues or similar issues. And i found that only people who are really guilty tend to be more agresive and eager to explain their part of story with LIES.

Example, if a person out of nowhere talking about having a problem with someone else and talk cock and bull story about the person and condenming the person, what makes u think the same person wont go to others and tell about u? Don't u think its a bad move for the person? Come on!! It is just showing wat a gossiper u are and what kind of dirty blood u having in your body that corrupted your brain from thinking wisely. If the person was a fren to the person being condemned about, why took the person so long to leak it out? until a problem started then leak it? Don u think it sounds more like covering ass before the truth arise? Or just make someone look bad so everybody will be on ur side and forgot about finding the truth? Don worry... the truth will always find a right time to speak. its not necesssary to explain. Because explaining is hiding, hiding rise suspicious, AND most importantly we call it gossiping.

I have few frens came to me and say that my nose is up in the space. Maybe i am proud, but don you think better to play on the safe side than giving chance to others to betray you?

Monday, September 15, 2008

Kiss Goodbye

All this time you were pretending
Now nothing is left but used to be
I'll never want you back
I've felt the hate rise up in me
Friendship is pure
BUT NOT WITH YOU
I might be quiet at times, that doesn't mean i'm weak
I don't revenge, flirt, gossip
I'm matured enough to behave like adults
I have my own path, definately not same as yours
I prefer walking alone than walking with you
Maybe we have the same hair colour
But your class will always be lower

B.I.T.C.H

I believe when i do something, i don't need to do explaination because u r not the one feeding me or give birth to me. I have my life and u have ur own ass that u have to cover SO DONT BE FVCKING BUSYBODY ABOUT MINE!
Its just a simple concept, u mind ur own problem i'll mind mine. If i don't have proof i don't come and ask u as i have alot of better things to do than caring about what u wanna do. As i said in the early post, i don talk about things when i don't have enough proves to stand on my statement. I don't like doing things that will only embarass me. IN SHORT WORD, WHEN I AM NOT MENTIONING ABOUT STUFFS, LEAVE ME OUT OF IT! STOP ANNOYING ME.
I think people nowadays have no brains! MAYBE they do have (...i've doubt on it) or maybe they put it in the ass. Today i realise people who are being so defensive and scared whatever embarassing stuff they have done being leak, actually go around sucking everybody's cock to proof she is innocent. (... WTF??!!) desperate cases.. that's what i saw.. but who cares.. u can bark all u wan.. be the bitch... and be the "innocent" one cos i'm not a dog like you, to bark around, i'm not a desperado bitch, u can be all u want, i'll just be the human. You can't clap with only one hand, if i join ur so childish, primary school game, it'll just make me a bitch like you.
Sometimes u might think u r always smart, maybe u are but this time u acted like a jackass. Maybe u think u won the game, short-term maybe u r, long term.... THINK AGAIN.
Whatever u do to others, will fall back on you. That's what my bf always says, "what goes around, comes around".

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Shame

What a wonderful day, my bf wake me up early in the morning to join him for breakfast (...finally he's free) then picked up my Slapper book from a shop (...i never know the book is missing from my book rack and he photostated it for me without telling me.. so sweet) hehe.. wait wait am i dreaming? Hell no... its all real. He's just being sweet after being busy for the past one week with his businesses. Now he went out for a drinking sessions with his frens and i'm sitting here missing him so much.
Sometimes when u r being so close and feeling like u r in a romantic day, surely something will come and screw up the happy part. I don understand why people have to put on fake faces and accusing others are lying when they are the one being so outdated or i'll say still living in the hoary days. oh yeah, im not talking about my bf here.. he is just perfect. I'm just talking about some kinky female creatures.
Have any of u heard of broadband? data card? phone as modem? i heard of it and i am using it like for more than a year!! and someone who is old enough to know what is maturity means coming to me telling it a was a big fat joke? Come on.. you're the joker here.. I was so angry but the time i got the sms, i just feel like what the hell i'm smsing with? human or just wrongly receive sms from ancient people in the past?
guys.. knowledge is so important in our world, though i enjoy my life more than i spend my time to listen in the class or even reading book in the house, i'll always make sure i talk only after i am sure and able to stand for my statement. Don ever say things that u think the person is joking in the end the person just gonna laugh back at ur joke. DONT EVER SPIT TO THE SKY AS IT WILL FALL ON UR OWN FACE.
oh yea. i was talking about my bf, he told me not to go for party but i wanted to believe my decision was right, in the end i have to admit, that u r right and i am wrong. I should've just listen to u and move on to our Langkawi trip and now its cancelled i didn't get to go to the party and i wasted my chance going to Langkawi with u. Sigh.. who to blame...